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So this week blog is actually going to be a video one. So watch and don't forget to leave a comment.

Can't wait to read them, and have an amazing day.

2015

It's the first Saturday o the New Year and I am writing a blog before turning in for the night.

I'm asking myself what I want from this year. That thought has been messing around my head or a few days now. It's a big deal to figure out what you want for the year.

Especially since this is a big year. I'll be turning 24, it marks the 20th anniversary of my father's death and it also marks 6 years since I graduated from high school.

I know partly what I want and that's to be more positive. I know I want to read 104 books. I know I want to be the best person that I can be.

What I don't know is how do I keep my life balanced, find happiness and love without losing who I am. How do I know what habits to keep and which ones not to?

I'm constantly thinking but that's who I am. I guess I’m wondering does anyone else out there feel the same way that I do. Is there any advice that I can get that will help me?

Tell me what you guys think? What are your plans and dreams for 2015?

Hummingbirds - Legends and Symbolism

      Over the last couple of months I have found myself pondering about humming birds. I always spot the feeders in Wal Mart when I go to pick up pet food and supplies. What got me really curious was: why did Papyrus use a hummingbird as its logo. What did it symbolize?

      According to the Papyrus card:

"Legends say that hummingbirds float free o time carrying our hopes for love, joy and celebration. The hummingbird's delicate grace reminds us that life is rich, beauty is everywhere, every personal connection has meaning and laughter is life's sweetest creation."

     Now this got me thinking, what else does a hummingbird stand for? SpiritAnimal.info says:

• Joy and playfulness
• Adaptability
• Lightness of being, enjoyment of life
• Being more present
• Independence
• Bringing playfulness and joy in your life
• Lifting up negativity
• Swiftness, ability to respond quickly
• Resilience, being able to travel great distances timelessly

       Okay this sis what I got from all my searching. Hummingbirds have a unique presence in legends and in symbolism and seem to bring the nature of positivity to lives.

       Hmm I wonder if this is why people get humming bird tattoo's.

What do you think?

Would you get a hummingbird tattoo?

Taboo Topics

Hey guys;

Three conversations that are usually not allowed out in a group setting: religion, politics and any thing that is related to sex. So what happens when you find yourself in one of these conversations in a public place, well you have a few choices:

• Bite you tongue and not say anything
• If possible leave the area
• Argue about your point of views till you are blue in the face or you have to removed from the location
• Turn it into a heated debate in hushed tones

Personally I would take the take biting my tongue or leave the area but most of the time I either end up doing the last one, especially if it is about something that I am passionate about or that I feel has not has justice done for it. 

I say we all have a voice but we barely use it, especially for those things that matter to us. Whether it be with a friend, colleague, family member, significant other or a stranger you should not let someone quiet you because you have different views. We have been giving the right of freedom of speech and we are allowed to have our own thoughts and opinions, just like we can voice them. The thing is that we need to remember that if we believe this that we must give the same respect to those that we are arguing against.

So many men, so many minds ~ Terence, Phormio, II, 4

If you were wondering what brought up today's topic of topics, its Tuesday and that means the day of the week that I hang out with my best friend at the library. She looked over my shoulder and saw a book titled The Nazi Olympics and that got us into arguing about Russia and the Olympic committee plans for the Homosexual athletes. That is the three taboo topics all wrapped up into one package.

I am not afraid to admit that I am straight but I do believe that homosexuals should have the exact same rights and freedoms that we heterosexuals do. It is the same with Catholics, Arabs, Muslims, Transsexual or Transgender, cross dressers.

We are all different and we need to remember that, we should all accept each other for who we are. Forgiveness means more than hatred, giving hope is better than destroying it and being unique is better than being the same.

What about you:

• why do you think these topics are taboo?
• have you ever had a similar experience and what did you do?
• what do you believe the true definition of equality is?
• how do we achieve equality for everyone around the world?

Leave your response in the comment below, I would love read about you and your thoughts.

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Dealing or Not Dealing

Hey Guys;

Long time no chat, so today is a day that I am not sure how to really deal with. I'm sitting at a computer inside of my classroom and watching everyone else working away at different projects that they are working on but here is the thing I have nothing. I feel like I am just a spectator and  that I am trapped and I can not do anything about it.

These last few days I have felt like the only thing I can do is feel like everything around me is coming crashing down like there are no support beams. I feel like I am being swallowed by projects and that my teachers don't understand what is going on inside of my world. The truth is that no one really understands what is going on inside of my head because how can they when I don't even know myself.

I feel like people are actually out to get me, am I starting to go insane or I am just over-analyzing.  I have no clue what to do anymore, it feels like I am always five minutes away from a meltdown and that is the ironic thing about today. I'm supposed to be doing a Five minutes with assignment and basically that is where we spend five minutes interviewing someone of importance. Here I am five minutes from a major meltdown because I feel like I am constantly just holding myself up in order to not drown.

Most of the time I have absolutely no clue how I am going to make it to the next day or even if I am. I have to keep telling my self that I am going to be okay and that I need to keep thinking positive. 

I have been reading a book called Chill by Deborah Reber. It has been really helpful. It has given me a number of different tricks and exercises that seem they could actually work. I just have to actually implement the techniques and fit them into my life.


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What is Beauty?

Many people all the time ask what beauty is and what they define as beauty. Beauty can be defined as many different things, it all depends on what the looker or what one perceives as beauty. Beauty can be define not just by an outside appearance but also by one's personality or look on life. Beauty is not skin deep or canvas deep. You can find beauty in anything as long as you are being true to yourself and isn't that what makes you the most beautiful is being able to show the world who you are and what you can accomplish. When you hide who you are and no longer show your full potential or your full self than you cannot say that you are being beautiful to yourself because you are truly not. You need to be able to show everything about you, set your own fashion standards and cosmetic routines, do not follow someone who you find beautiful because that may work for them but that does not mean that you are going to be just as beautiful as that person because they designed it for them and not for you. You are unique and you need to show that, you need that to shine through brighter than ever when you want to show that you are beautiful. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I want all you to feel beautiful but also comfortable and that is when you are most beautiful.

Remember to never stop being you
Mae

What I want

Hey guys;

   I know its been awhile but that is partly because of all the details of my life that I have been dealing with and wanting to figure out what I want out of the world. I have decided though that there are a lot of things that in my life I need to look at and ask myself if they really belong there.

   I need to ask myself if somethings are really worth all the trouble and pain and sacrifice that I have put upon myself just for in the end to end up miserable. I don't know what to say or who to say it to. I want so many things out of my life but I am unsure how to get them.

   I want to be happy and have people like me but I don' t want to be someone that gets walked over and is unsure of themselves. I have so many dreams and aspirations but I don't know how to get to them, who to keep and who to let go, what to fight for success and what to drop for failure. I know I want to be happy and successful but I don't know how to get there.

   I want to be a partner and mother someday but not now. I need to be successful on my own, not depending on people to support me. I need to be able to say hey I did this and I can do it again and I don't need a partner to be happy and successful. Sure I want to date and fall in love but I don't want to become dependent on someone but most of all I want the person to be like this also.

   I want to have a stable income before I even think about moving out of my mom's but in the end this is where I feel safe and this is where I always want to be. I love being with my family, yeah my brothers bother and annoy me but in the end I wouldn't change it for anything. Yes I want my independence but at the cost of family, never. I want to live on my own or with my best friend but not until I know that I can support myself without having to go to my mom or grandmother for help. I want to be able to say hey I did that all on my own.

   I want to have my schooling done before I even think about having kids, do I want them yes. I know I am the mothering type of person. I want to be able to give my love to someone else, raise, nurture, advise and watch someone grow up. Honestly right now I am having a hard time dealing with my own problems, let alone the ones that come with having a baby. I want to be able to support and supply that child with everything they need, including my time and attention and right now I don't have that to give.

   I want find that one person that I belong with but the truth is I'm almost 22 and I've dated one person in what I would call an actual relationship, kissed three guys and only ever been one real date that most people classify as a date. I've met a lot of amazing guys, some I can see a future with, others that I am iffy about, some that will be amazing friends and sources to go to in the future. Have I found that one person that I can be with forever?  I don't think so, I know a lot about people and personalities or I like to think I do.

   By the time you get into your 20s you are developing who you are going to be for the rest of your life. I'm going to be academic that struggles, I can tell that. I know that people who are not ready to give up something the hold dear to them now aren't going to let it go and you can not force or bargain someone to change who they are no matter how much you want to help them or save them. Especially when they remind you so much of someone else that you couldn't save.

   I want the person that I end up with to be happy with who they are, whether they are upset or disappointed about their past or have a terrible past but recognize it as the past and are looking towards the future that they want brighter and better for themselves and not for me or anyone else. I want this person to be happy and thankful for life and all of the lessons that they have learned. Most of all I want this person to be true to themselves, like I am trying to be to myself.

Mae