Thursday, January 17, 2013

This Year

Hey guys;

So I just went through something and it made me start to think, I realized that even without doing it that I made a new year resolution and that is to determine what I want from my life. I am not talking about career wise or stuff like that, I mean like when I look into the future am I going to see the person that makes me happy. I am not talking about material things, I am talking emotional, sentimental meaning.

I know that finishing a year of college with a good grade point average will empower me and make me proud. I know that being able to strive for emotional and mental success without the use of medication would empower me so much to do anything that I set my mind to do. I don't need a partner or lots of money or fancy things in order to make me happy all I need is to be happy with me and that is all that really matters.

Since the beginning of this month and a bit into the end of December I have been wearing a butterfly charm necklace. I don't know why, but it was calling to me. It was telling me to wear it and I have been. When I go through the web and look up meanings of butterfly charms or butterflies I find a lot of different answers:

A quick-list of Butterfly animal symbolism:
  • Resurrection
  • Transition
  • Celebration
  • Lightness
  • Time
  • Soul
from: http://www.whats-your-sign.com/butterfly-animal-symbolism.html

or

Symbolism and Power

Butterfly is the power of air, the ability to float upon a breeze. It is known for its darting flight; thus, it represents the mind and our ability to change it when necessary. Butterfly represents the never-ending cycle of life; therefore, its medicine bestows not only the ability, but the clarity of mind needed before self-transformation.
Pink ButterflyButterflies appear to dance as they flutter among the flowers. They remind us not to take things so seriously within our lives. They awaken a sense of lightness and joy. They remind us to get up and move, for if you do not move, you cannot dance.
Butterflies bring color and joy with them. The colors of the butterfly should be examined for significance and to help you understand its role within your life. Look at how much or little joy is in your life. Lighten up. Look for change. Make changes when the opportunities present themselves. The butterfly will teach you that growth and change do not have to be traumatic. Change can occur as gently and as joyfully as one wishes.

The Lesson

The lesson of the butterfly is letting go of old behavior and expounding into the next phase of existence. Each of us transforms through multiple stages in our life. It is only through exertion that we emerge into who we will be next. Ask for butterfly help when:
  • You need help organizing a project or detailing the sequence of steps to complete it.
  • You know it is time for a change and need the courage to break free from your “cocoon.”
  • You are experiencing a major life change.
  • You take things too seriously.
Access butterfly power by…
  • Noticing colors you are drawn to and trying to discern what they mean for you.
  • Choosing a habit you no longer want, developing and implementing a plan to change it.
  • Observing butterflies in their natural environment (a park or preserve) and noting what you are thinking when one comes into view.
  • Wrapping yourself tightly in a blanket for a few minutes and then slowly unwrapping it and emerge. Does this seem like a metaphor for anything in your life right now?
  • Dance! Alone or with someone, release the energy to propel you forward.
 from: http://www.pure-spirit.com/more-animal-symbolism/611-butterfly-symbolism

or

Butterfly Symbolism

  • In addition to being pretty and decorative, butterfly jewelry can imply freedom, transformation, openness, rebirth, patience, love and happiness.
Cultural Significance
  • The symbolism of a butterfly can also hold cultural significance. For example, it's symbolic of the soul in Greek culture and indicates the cycle of life in Christianity.
from: http://www.ehow.com/facts_5019444_heart-butterfly-jewelry-symbolize.html

I am going to accomplish this and rebirth my life from the sad and dreary one to one full of freedom, openness, patience, love and happiness. I am going to let myself let go of all that has happened and move on from it. Not forget it but I am no longer going to let it control me.  

The biggest thing that has held me back in my life has been my dad and his death but the truth is it wasn't  his death or the manner in which he did it. It was the fact that he broke my trust, he was the first one to abandoned me when I needed him most, so I learned to not trust easily. It has been an entire childhood from the time he left my life so it is time to let him go and move forward with my life, because in the end that is what he would have wanted was for me to be happy.

This year is about finding me without that part of my life, it is about figuring what I want from life and who I want to be in it. That means figuring out who I am and what I want so I can figure out who and what kind of person I want to share it with. Maybe it will always be you guys, my followers, or my readers for my publish work but whomever it may be, so be it. Things happen for a reason and we can not change that reason, each and every person and event was put into my life for a reason and some I could decode easily while others took a bit more time but in the end I know they were sent to help me be the most amazing person I can be.

I am an amateur and am proud to learn from my mistakes.
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