Dealing or Not Dealing

Hey Guys;

Long time no chat, so today is a day that I am not sure how to really deal with. I'm sitting at a computer inside of my classroom and watching everyone else working away at different projects that they are working on but here is the thing I have nothing. I feel like I am just a spectator and  that I am trapped and I can not do anything about it.

These last few days I have felt like the only thing I can do is feel like everything around me is coming crashing down like there are no support beams. I feel like I am being swallowed by projects and that my teachers don't understand what is going on inside of my world. The truth is that no one really understands what is going on inside of my head because how can they when I don't even know myself.

I feel like people are actually out to get me, am I starting to go insane or I am just over-analyzing.  I have no clue what to do anymore, it feels like I am always five minutes away from a meltdown and that is the ironic thing about today. I'm supposed to be doing a Five minutes with assignment and basically that is where we spend five minutes interviewing someone of importance. Here I am five minutes from a major meltdown because I feel like I am constantly just holding myself up in order to not drown.

Most of the time I have absolutely no clue how I am going to make it to the next day or even if I am. I have to keep telling my self that I am going to be okay and that I need to keep thinking positive. 

I have been reading a book called Chill by Deborah Reber. It has been really helpful. It has given me a number of different tricks and exercises that seem they could actually work. I just have to actually implement the techniques and fit them into my life.


I am an amateur and am proud to learn from my mistakes.
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