Taboo Topics

Hey guys;

Three conversations that are usually not allowed out in a group setting: religion, politics and any thing that is related to sex. So what happens when you find yourself in one of these conversations in a public place, well you have a few choices:

• Bite you tongue and not say anything
• If possible leave the area
• Argue about your point of views till you are blue in the face or you have to removed from the location
• Turn it into a heated debate in hushed tones

Personally I would take the take biting my tongue or leave the area but most of the time I either end up doing the last one, especially if it is about something that I am passionate about or that I feel has not has justice done for it. 

I say we all have a voice but we barely use it, especially for those things that matter to us. Whether it be with a friend, colleague, family member, significant other or a stranger you should not let someone quiet you because you have different views. We have been giving the right of freedom of speech and we are allowed to have our own thoughts and opinions, just like we can voice them. The thing is that we need to remember that if we believe this that we must give the same respect to those that we are arguing against.

So many men, so many minds ~ Terence, Phormio, II, 4

If you were wondering what brought up today's topic of topics, its Tuesday and that means the day of the week that I hang out with my best friend at the library. She looked over my shoulder and saw a book titled The Nazi Olympics and that got us into arguing about Russia and the Olympic committee plans for the Homosexual athletes. That is the three taboo topics all wrapped up into one package.

I am not afraid to admit that I am straight but I do believe that homosexuals should have the exact same rights and freedoms that we heterosexuals do. It is the same with Catholics, Arabs, Muslims, Transsexual or Transgender, cross dressers.

We are all different and we need to remember that, we should all accept each other for who we are. Forgiveness means more than hatred, giving hope is better than destroying it and being unique is better than being the same.

What about you:

• why do you think these topics are taboo?
• have you ever had a similar experience and what did you do?
• what do you believe the true definition of equality is?
• how do we achieve equality for everyone around the world?

Leave your response in the comment below, I would love read about you and your thoughts.

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Dealing or Not Dealing

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Long time no chat, so today is a day that I am not sure how to really deal with. I'm sitting at a computer inside of my classroom and watching everyone else working away at different projects that they are working on but here is the thing I have nothing. I feel like I am just a spectator and  that I am trapped and I can not do anything about it.

These last few days I have felt like the only thing I can do is feel like everything around me is coming crashing down like there are no support beams. I feel like I am being swallowed by projects and that my teachers don't understand what is going on inside of my world. The truth is that no one really understands what is going on inside of my head because how can they when I don't even know myself.

I feel like people are actually out to get me, am I starting to go insane or I am just over-analyzing.  I have no clue what to do anymore, it feels like I am always five minutes away from a meltdown and that is the ironic thing about today. I'm supposed to be doing a Five minutes with assignment and basically that is where we spend five minutes interviewing someone of importance. Here I am five minutes from a major meltdown because I feel like I am constantly just holding myself up in order to not drown.

Most of the time I have absolutely no clue how I am going to make it to the next day or even if I am. I have to keep telling my self that I am going to be okay and that I need to keep thinking positive. 

I have been reading a book called Chill by Deborah Reber. It has been really helpful. It has given me a number of different tricks and exercises that seem they could actually work. I just have to actually implement the techniques and fit them into my life.


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What is Beauty?

Many people all the time ask what beauty is and what they define as beauty. Beauty can be defined as many different things, it all depends on what the looker or what one perceives as beauty. Beauty can be define not just by an outside appearance but also by one's personality or look on life. Beauty is not skin deep or canvas deep. You can find beauty in anything as long as you are being true to yourself and isn't that what makes you the most beautiful is being able to show the world who you are and what you can accomplish. When you hide who you are and no longer show your full potential or your full self than you cannot say that you are being beautiful to yourself because you are truly not. You need to be able to show everything about you, set your own fashion standards and cosmetic routines, do not follow someone who you find beautiful because that may work for them but that does not mean that you are going to be just as beautiful as that person because they designed it for them and not for you. You are unique and you need to show that, you need that to shine through brighter than ever when you want to show that you are beautiful. I am saying this from the bottom of my heart because I want all you to feel beautiful but also comfortable and that is when you are most beautiful.

Remember to never stop being you
Mae

What I want

Hey guys;

   I know its been awhile but that is partly because of all the details of my life that I have been dealing with and wanting to figure out what I want out of the world. I have decided though that there are a lot of things that in my life I need to look at and ask myself if they really belong there.

   I need to ask myself if somethings are really worth all the trouble and pain and sacrifice that I have put upon myself just for in the end to end up miserable. I don't know what to say or who to say it to. I want so many things out of my life but I am unsure how to get them.

   I want to be happy and have people like me but I don' t want to be someone that gets walked over and is unsure of themselves. I have so many dreams and aspirations but I don't know how to get to them, who to keep and who to let go, what to fight for success and what to drop for failure. I know I want to be happy and successful but I don't know how to get there.

   I want to be a partner and mother someday but not now. I need to be successful on my own, not depending on people to support me. I need to be able to say hey I did this and I can do it again and I don't need a partner to be happy and successful. Sure I want to date and fall in love but I don't want to become dependent on someone but most of all I want the person to be like this also.

   I want to have a stable income before I even think about moving out of my mom's but in the end this is where I feel safe and this is where I always want to be. I love being with my family, yeah my brothers bother and annoy me but in the end I wouldn't change it for anything. Yes I want my independence but at the cost of family, never. I want to live on my own or with my best friend but not until I know that I can support myself without having to go to my mom or grandmother for help. I want to be able to say hey I did that all on my own.

   I want to have my schooling done before I even think about having kids, do I want them yes. I know I am the mothering type of person. I want to be able to give my love to someone else, raise, nurture, advise and watch someone grow up. Honestly right now I am having a hard time dealing with my own problems, let alone the ones that come with having a baby. I want to be able to support and supply that child with everything they need, including my time and attention and right now I don't have that to give.

   I want find that one person that I belong with but the truth is I'm almost 22 and I've dated one person in what I would call an actual relationship, kissed three guys and only ever been one real date that most people classify as a date. I've met a lot of amazing guys, some I can see a future with, others that I am iffy about, some that will be amazing friends and sources to go to in the future. Have I found that one person that I can be with forever?  I don't think so, I know a lot about people and personalities or I like to think I do.

   By the time you get into your 20s you are developing who you are going to be for the rest of your life. I'm going to be academic that struggles, I can tell that. I know that people who are not ready to give up something the hold dear to them now aren't going to let it go and you can not force or bargain someone to change who they are no matter how much you want to help them or save them. Especially when they remind you so much of someone else that you couldn't save.

   I want the person that I end up with to be happy with who they are, whether they are upset or disappointed about their past or have a terrible past but recognize it as the past and are looking towards the future that they want brighter and better for themselves and not for me or anyone else. I want this person to be happy and thankful for life and all of the lessons that they have learned. Most of all I want this person to be true to themselves, like I am trying to be to myself.

Mae

This Year

Hey guys;

So I just went through something and it made me start to think, I realized that even without doing it that I made a new year resolution and that is to determine what I want from my life. I am not talking about career wise or stuff like that, I mean like when I look into the future am I going to see the person that makes me happy. I am not talking about material things, I am talking emotional, sentimental meaning.

I know that finishing a year of college with a good grade point average will empower me and make me proud. I know that being able to strive for emotional and mental success without the use of medication would empower me so much to do anything that I set my mind to do. I don't need a partner or lots of money or fancy things in order to make me happy all I need is to be happy with me and that is all that really matters.

Since the beginning of this month and a bit into the end of December I have been wearing a butterfly charm necklace. I don't know why, but it was calling to me. It was telling me to wear it and I have been. When I go through the web and look up meanings of butterfly charms or butterflies I find a lot of different answers:

A quick-list of Butterfly animal symbolism:

• Resurrection
• Transition
• Celebration
• Lightness
• Time
• Soul

from: http://www.whats-your-sign.com/butterfly-animal-symbolism.html

or

Symbolism and Power

Butterfly is the power of air, the ability to float upon a breeze. It is known for its darting flight; thus, it represents the mind and our ability to change it when necessary. Butterfly represents the never-ending cycle of life; therefore, its medicine bestows not only the ability, but the clarity of mind needed before self-transformation.
Butterflies appear to dance as they flutter among the flowers. They remind us not to take things so seriously within our lives. They awaken a sense of lightness and joy. They remind us to get up and move, for if you do not move, you cannot dance.
Butterflies bring color and joy with them. The colors of the butterfly should be examined for significance and to help you understand its role within your life. Look at how much or little joy is in your life. Lighten up. Look for change. Make changes when the opportunities present themselves. The butterfly will teach you that growth and change do not have to be traumatic. Change can occur as gently and as joyfully as one wishes.

The Lesson

The lesson of the butterfly is letting go of old behavior and expounding into the next phase of existence. Each of us transforms through multiple stages in our life. It is only through exertion that we emerge into who we will be next. Ask for butterfly help when:

• You need help organizing a project or detailing the sequence of steps to complete it.
• You know it is time for a change and need the courage to break free from your “cocoon.”
• You are experiencing a major life change.
• You take things too seriously.

Access butterfly power by…

• Noticing colors you are drawn to and trying to discern what they mean for you.
• Choosing a habit you no longer want, developing and implementing a plan to change it.
• Observing butterflies in their natural environment (a park or preserve) and noting what you are thinking when one comes into view.
• Wrapping yourself tightly in a blanket for a few minutes and then slowly unwrapping it and emerge. Does this seem like a metaphor for anything in your life right now?
• Dance! Alone or with someone, release the energy to propel you forward.

 from: http://www.pure-spirit.com/more-animal-symbolism/611-butterfly-symbolism

or

Butterfly Symbolism

• In addition to being pretty and decorative, butterfly jewelry can imply freedom, transformation, openness, rebirth, patience, love and happiness.
  

Cultural Significance

• The symbolism of a butterfly can also hold cultural significance. For example, it's symbolic of the soul in Greek culture and indicates the cycle of life in Christianity.
  

from: http://www.ehow.com/facts_5019444_heart-butterfly-jewelry-symbolize.html

I am going to accomplish this and rebirth my life from the sad and dreary one to one full of freedom, openness, patience, love and happiness. I am going to let myself let go of all that has happened and move on from it. Not forget it but I am no longer going to let it control me.  

The biggest thing that has held me back in my life has been my dad and his death but the truth is it wasn't  his death or the manner in which he did it. It was the fact that he broke my trust, he was the first one to abandoned me when I needed him most, so I learned to not trust easily. It has been an entire childhood from the time he left my life so it is time to let him go and move forward with my life, because in the end that is what he would have wanted was for me to be happy.

This year is about finding me without that part of my life, it is about figuring what I want from life and who I want to be in it. That means figuring out who I am and what I want so I can figure out who and what kind of person I want to share it with. Maybe it will always be you guys, my followers, or my readers for my publish work but whomever it may be, so be it. Things happen for a reason and we can not change that reason, each and every person and event was put into my life for a reason and some I could decode easily while others took a bit more time but in the end I know they were sent to help me be the most amazing person I can be.

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Starting Podcasts

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I am starting something new and it is known as weekly podcasts. This week is just about an introduction but leave me a comment of what you guys think would be an interesting topic, hope you all enjoy.

Podcast: http://maesworld.podbean.com/2013/01/13/introduction/

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Second Semester of Classes

   Wow it is already January of 2013 and that means that it is already the start of second semester. Wow, where does the time go. It feels like it was just October and we were just getting into the nitty gritty of the work that was to come but here we are starting all over again. That means that it is time once again to get reorganized and take control and plan how we are going to make this semester better than the last one.

   In my case that meant dropping two classes and dropping my course load down six hours and getting my accommodation plan tweaked a bit in order to help me out. It now has the reduced class load to lessen my stress but also includes written deadlines that are to be stuck to, for some that means nothing but to me it makes all of the difference. I mean after all the trouble that last semester brought with deadlines changing the night of two before an assignment was due really does take a toll on a person. It still does include being allow to take tests in quite spaces away from everyone else and that did help me a lot last semester because I was never worried about why someone was finishing before me or not.

  In my experience it is okay to ask for help, especially when it comes to the academic world, because this is the foundation for the rest of your life and without a sturdy foundation you are not able to grow on and be able to foster into the amazing person that you could succeed to be. People may believe that it is easier to do things on their own and not to admit defeat but that does not help you in the long run. That will make it harder in the end to admit that you need help and are unable to face in your mind what counts as a failure.

   It time to think of the future and what we want to do, we are coming to a point in our lives where we need to be ready to say lets go forward and become the best that we can. We need to be able to find our path in life and become the best that we can be and move on to better things in our life, we need to move forward and be the best person that we can be. It does not matter in the end what we accomplish it matters how happy we are in the end of all the things we have been in through in our life.

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